Ace Of Spade

usa sa pina ka karaan nablognako..ayaw nalng pangotana kinsa kong buot pasabot ani.. :p







as much as i hate to admit it..i still am paranoid, obsessed, torn & broken..
my tormented sick and arrogant soul won't and can't let go of what it loves most..
~you~

my heart so full of mud & hate find it sooo damn hard to forgive what you both
soul slayers and life crashers did..
countless precious tears fell from these beautiful eyes.
all just because of what you think and felt was right.
You both wrecked my life and gave me the most painful feeling i could barely take.
i wish you'd go to hell for that..
but then that would be unfair, coz i'll be in heaven feeling sorry for you.

how can she be the only subject?
why wouldn't you care how i feel and how i care?
every little thing and mistakes you will do will affect me. got that?
even a stupid crazy person would understand that..
you, the most careless and insensitive being i've ever known won't even get the hint!

how dare you say that i'm insensitive? have i ever hurt anyone the way you hurt me?
did i crash somebody's life?
did i recklessly made somebody cry?
did i ever played behind your back? (for crying out loud you know what i mean)
and if i did something wrong, did i ever mean it?
i thought i was too harsh then you prove that you are worst than iam..
i know you would hate to hear this beacuse you can't accept the fact that ~iam~
better than the both of you.

As stupid as you are i know you wouldn't get what i mean..
because you refuse to understand.. because you are stupid..

nobody blamed you for breaking her..was it not her's & your choice?
wasn't it made out of love?
then why would you throw me that lamest reason?
just say it straight to my face that you still love her.
like i've always did, i'll take a deep breath and the pain.